I need a list of ten good things today. It's been a long week in a series of long weeks. I know there are people out there who keep "gratitude journals" in which they write three good things that happened that day--I'm afraid some days I wouldn't have anything real to say and then I'd be even more depressed about things. Or that I would write the same three things every day: my three kids, for instance. And then it wouldn't seem special and instead just taking for granted.
Lately I haven't been blogging, I know. I am worried about many things. Lately my life has felt a little bit like a list of shit I have to get done. Now, this happens sometimes, but usually in anticipation for something large like a trip or the beginning of a new job. These days it just feels like an endless list.
So I need to make some nice little lists. So here are 10 things that are good.
1. We got a new doctor for London--a dermatologist--and he had answers for us.
2. I talked to London's principal about some things that are going on and I cried in her office and I could tell that she really liked me.
3. The third grade teacher at their school said that she'd spent part of thanksgiving with a junior in high school who is dating her niece and my name came up at dinner because he'd gone to the school where I taught. "She is the BEST TEACHER I EVER HAD."
Best part? I knew immediately who the young man must be. And I was right. Oh baby.
4. My own principal nominated me for a math and science teacher award. I won't get it--but she nominated *me. I think she sees me.
5. I really, really, really like my partner teacher.
6. I got out my stained glass stuff and I remember what to do and how to do it and I am happy with it.
7. Niles made his first reconciliation and didn't faint in the confessional like he was afraid he would.
8. My sisters took me to coffee a couple weeks ago and we talked real talk.
9. I have a couple of friends who see me. Who listen to me and share with me and see me and hold my heart gently. And I'm holding onto them tight because the world is tossing my little ship on huge angry waves these days.
10. One time many years ago I held a handmade brown stuffed rabbit made from a couple of old spare socks with an embroidered face that my mother was making for a friend's baby. She gave it to me instead. I named it Skessarow and it is one of the things I still have. And it makes me happy.